time for a change brah!

okay;
pwhew

so this day has effected me massively in a positive way.
there will be changes made,
and i will be sure of that!

so aiding in the office gets extremely boring so i started to think and writee.
I wrote this uber long 2 page rant and I will be summing it up on here but laterr.

so every year I go through this 'i put my foot down change thing'
like last year i made a new years resolution to stop eating meat.
in the beginning it started off as me trying to commit myself to something i could stick through and actually accomplish.
sigh, b/c i was going through some personal problems.

now a year has almost passed and my goal is well over accomplished.
initially i wanted to try to go for atleast 6 months but when i started doing research i developed a passion for animal rights and shit. =]

that was also around the time that i was getting over a likage.
it kept me concentrated on something that i really wanted to accomplish.
thats one of the reasons why i started that updates thing on my myspace page...

so yeah,
i plan on doing that again, but in a diff way.
i wanna make another change w/n myself...another new years resolution.
i wanted to go green, but that seems very unrealistic right now
[though i can still try]

so i'm still thinking about what exactly my resolution will be.

last week was depressing,
i keep dwelling on it.
smh.

but i plan on doing something to change it.
ahh, starting with my blog.

so i'm gonna screw things up a bit.
i'm gonna adjust my link on my original blog change it to this one.
i'm not gonna reveal my blog link to anyone except my other two faithful bloggers
[emkaydien]
so now when you go on thisspilledcanvas.blogspot.com you will see this blog.

i feel like i express myself a little better on here.
it feels more comfortable.
idy.

*thinks*
so yeah now that thats settled,
i can start blogging.

i'm human,
i get jealous.
geez i get jealous.

i think it's already established who i like...
but so did pb at one point in time.
as much as she denies it i'm not dumb,
i can still see that she likes him,
likeee when i told her we liked each other she cried.
=/

but anyway,
i just get a little jealous b/c they text during school
and i'm like right there everytime...
i mean it's really not nothing.
but since i think i know how she feels i get jealous.
and b/c i wasn't getting txted hmph.

so unintentionally it makes me feel a certain way..
it's been bothering me for the past two days,
but i guess i'm getting over it.

[grr my foot went to sleep]

soo back to my change thing,
ahh, i've slackin a lot.
and i just feel really comfortable not trying to do anything.
but thats extremely terrible.

like hollands has been telling me i'm slipping in bio.
like blehh, i know.
when i go home i don't even open my book bag.
i squeeze in my hw on my free lst period on A days.
i haven't studied in like forever.

[ooo, i just got new PETA stickers!]

but yeah,
i'm slackin and that needs to fixed.
so over the break i plan on adjusting that dramatically.
\i plan on starting my change...

ahh, i need to start being more organized too b/c everything i own is a mess.
my room, my closet, my binder
sadsad.

though it's an organized mess, it's a mess.

[smh, i'm shaking for some odd reason]

but anyway,
overall i had a pretty awesome day.

my blogs on here always seem to be longer,
so yeah i need to take my bra off,
lmfao.
it's becoming annoying.
yeah i'm done now.
lol.