somekindaway.

sigh.
initially i was really elated.
i had a wonderrrrrful day today,
but now i'm really upset.

ugh, let me get it out of the way.
my 'current frustration' escalates every motherFUCKIN day!

it's really pissing me off
i'm so upset,
i'm like on the verge of shedding emotions in the form of liquid but i don't want to b/c thats for bitches and i told myself i wasn't gonna cry over this.

ahh, too late.

but moving on,
today was pretty sweet.
me, kayla, candice, and cia were playing slapjack today and it was so awesome.
i was acting like a crackhead tryna slap the cards cause kayla kept winning.
but i got one hand though!!
=]

and SGAAAAAA!
agah!
it was so awesome.
even though it was dead.
the important people came today.
i can't wait for the lock-in.
weeeeee.

soo me and pb are much much much more better now.
i'm trying not to talk about what i'm not suppose to talk about with her and focus on other stuff and ask her about herself,
and it seems to be going fine.
we had like a real deep talk today.
i love herr.

ughhh shitfuck,
i keep thinking about it!

so tomorrow we finally go to ihop and i finally get my hair done!
i guess thats encouraging.

okay well i'm done.
i lost my mood to blog. =[

hmm, i wonder what imma do to these blogs when i make this thing public again...