uraummmm, WOW

spring break is where i get alot of me time.

i start to think alotttttttttt.

but i mean, i guess that isn't the case this time.

but my eyes have opened up alot today.

am i as real as everybody thinks i am?

like sometimes i think i'm pretty fake. 

idy, i mean right now i don't.

i KNOW i'm not.

but ehhh, it's just a thought.

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wow, i was gonna stop blogging but what i just read just caused me to wanna type about this some more.

like man, people often tell me that i try to be like morgan,

and sometimes it gets to me.

i mean of course it is if i'm hearing it allllllllllllll the time.

i do acquire some things from morgan,

&vice versa.

i acquire things from alot of people.

i mean being around somebody allll the time you tend to pick up some of their habits.

likeee, kayla.

she says this thing 'of course not' and idky i picked it up but i did and i can't stop saying it!

urgh!

like sometimes i feel like a sponge.

i hear something or i see something i like and i unconsciously pick it up.

it's annoying but w/e.

i'm pretty sure theres alot of people that do that.

and although most of the things i do come from me.

why am i seen as 'real' opposed to the others

like idk,

i have my own personality.

i know what i like and dislike.

idk who i am...b/c i believe finding true self comes with age and time.

but i know who i am RIGHT now.

but it's impossible for me to have everything i say and do come from JUST ME.

&i know i have people who mimic what i do.

although it's more than they should. LOL

should we all be faulted for trying to be a little different 

or acquiring something that we see that we like?

ehhh,

i'm pretty sure i'm rambling but w/e.

lalalalalalalala;

just random thoughts.

i could go onnn,

but i need to perm my hair.

one more perm for prom

&i'm done.

natural all day.

LOL

-nat out. =]

***LOL i have one thing to add,

 i wasn't bashing anybodys;

 i was just jotting mii thoughts down about the subject. 

ahehe***