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well, idrw be on the cpu.

but i just decided to updated my blog b/c i needed an outlet to vent.

so much for starting off the week swelll.

ever since sunday night i've been feeling like shit

ohhh and last night i felt even worst.

i finally got to cry tho...took a couple of days.

but boy oh boy did i need it.

hmm, imma get the bad stuff outta the way first.

well my saddened mood is due to a couple of things that have been finally coming to a head.

hmm, well i guess my emotions are prob surrounding school,

nooo, not the school work b/c honestly i could give a damn at this point in time.

but school coming to an end is what i'm worrying about.

i wanna get out of school just as much as any of my other senior friends..and i've been counting down the days and all but it's coming to a point where i'm actually realizing that these ARE the last weeks or months or w/e that i will be seeing these people.

like after prom, graduation and senior day and shit..i won't see these people anymore.

&what makes it even worst is that i'm moving soon.

it feels like the life that i've known and come accustomed to is changing...

everyones going to diff schools,

leading diff lives.

like EM said i'm over thinking it too soon and too much but gahhh,

things are really gonna change.

i won't have the same friendship with the people i've known in HS for the past 4 yrs b/c in reality we're gonna start growing apart.

i know how hard it is for me to become comfortable with change.

as much i love it...change is good but it's hard to deal with it when it's in the beginning sometimes.

mann, the year is damn near over and i JUST became comfortable w/ a couple of things now...

smfh, and what makes it worst is that i'm moving...to a diff state mind you.

shit is gonna be really hard.

as much as all my friends aren't the best,

they still are the people that i've became comfortable w/ and i'm accustomed to being around...

starting over new..mannn thats gonna be a bitch.

sigh.

here comes the bitch tears...

is it bad that i don't really wanna go to prom?

i mean of course i wouldn't miss it..but idrw go.

esp since i'm feeling like i don't have a set niche or a group of friends that i love being around anymore.

i think it's b/c i kinda of unintentionally surrounding myself w/ a 'clique' 

like people i'm alwaysssssss around.

&thats find and all but we've become to drift apart.

things aren't like they use to be.

i've realized that i'm really diff and i just enjoy diff things.

i still enjoy their company and i enjoy them but idk...it's not the same,

and i can't force it anymore.

i fear that i won't have fun b/c of this...like i don't want prom to suck.

i'm really glad that i'm going w/ kay b/c he's all losery and immaturely funny

makes me feel kinda comfy ya know?

i just wish everything would kinda go a little slower but still go at a fast pace.

i'm not ready to be depressed b/c i know it's coming.

i'm an emotional little bitch...LOL can't help it.

my tears will ballllllllllllllllllll

the good thing is i found myself hiding it very well.

i'm trying not to dwell and just enjoy everything as it is b/c i know time is limited.

idw be an emotional reck the last 4 weeks of school and shit.

i've gotten a little stronger since my last kljhfilherjtkhtjkrht mood so i can take a couple of punches i guess.

okay so good things!

i got my prizoommmmm dress bitch!

it goes perfecto w/ the look i wanna go for so now i can start all the little odds and ends us females have to do for prom.

it wasn't the color i had in mind tho.

it's kinda funny b/c i wanted a yellow or royal blue dress but ever since i was in 9th grade i always said i wanted the color dress that i have now...

but yeah, 

thats great.

even tho my mom put me through shit so we could make it at the prom place.

but yahyah, i love it &such.

[ahh, kay made me loose my train of thought]

but umm, yeah.

one of my necklaces that i won from ebay came today!

i think imma wear it tomorrow. =]

ohh, and jr prom is this weekend.

i can't wait to hosttt.

ooo, and i'm going to coldestones manana!

ahhhh, =]]]

lalalalala, well i'm distracted b/c i just got on the phone.

so adiossss<<3

i'll have more to rant about soon...

i know it.

**friends**

[my little reminder]