mehhh? eh

sooo, i think i'm gonna force myself to blog...

idk how this is gonna go

i'm just gonna type and yeahhhhh

ahahaha

so i've been watching mitchell davis & chanceys youtube vids for about a while now.

ahhhh, they're so cool.

they make me wanna make sweet vids &such.

i was gonna make a video and attempt to edit it but i got lazy.

everyday i'm hating my job more & more.

likee i just go b/c i'd rather just have my own money& not ask mi madre.

i don't needd a job, 

but if i want the things that i want then i better keep that shit.

i was gonna stay on the little college thing where i leave for school and then when i come back on like winter & summer break & junk i could work there...

but being as though i'm movingg.

i might just quit.

ahaha, but it all depends on where i move...and if i'm actually moving at all.

but if i have to saty there...

ugh i mind as well just suck it up,

where else am i gonna get flexible 4 hour shifts w/ a 50 cent raise every 6 months?

lololol

sooo, yeah.

i think the reason i kinda haven't been blogging is b/c i have to sit down and just think about me...

i think i talk about me too much, actually i'm getting sick of talking about me.

i go through the same stupid shit.

ahahaha.

nothing new really.

i sporadically get sad over something thats taking FOREVER to go away.

i hate people.

people piss me off.

i randomly getting depressed.

&ya di ya di ya.

luckily i've been feeling pretty sweet.

i kinda feel like i'm pulling away...but not really.

lol like i told you this blog is going no where.

so i was thinking last night i feel like i'm at a standstill.

everythings happening but i'm not really taking anything in.

i try to tell myself to live in the now...ya know the moment &such.

i guess it's been helping.

things are happening,

but i don't necessarily feel a certain way about them.

i just feel there...

lol, idt that makes sense.

but ehhh w/e,

i don't understand why i must be so fricken shy.

like i was being really shyyy,

well not really...but more shy then usual.

& my comfort zone was around.

tsktsktsk smmfh!

i'm working on it tho.

ahaha,

like kayla said we 'gon be fighting. 

lolololol

hmm, so yeah...

random facts:

my sis bought a hermit crab today...ehhh

it's actually pretty nifty looking.

my hair looks like uberly niice on the first day i do it 

mizann like i washed my hair  friday night and it looked so niiiceee.

ahhh!

my opinions about people change everyday

i hate answering my house phone

i go prom jewelry shopping this week

&i get fitted for my dress friday.

weeee!

=]

...time to call my gma in NC. =/

adios<3