salting my wounds.

jesus, nat;

just slap yourself into a mood again.

agahfagah.

i'll update laterrrrr. =/

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i'm glad to say that i'm feeling very better.

lately,i get in like this random ass funk...but it nvr last really long.

like it comes to a head and then it goes away,

well for the time being of course.

idky but i'm kinda excited to go back to work.

lol, even tho i have to call out nxt sat so i can host jr. prom.

they're gonna be mad.

but wtfeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

so me and my lil sis busted out asses today cleaning the house freakin house.

i mean it's the least we can do after what happened yesterday.

it looks so neattttt.

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okay, so imma make this like little multiple blogs.

i just wanna jot.

so it's: April 13th, 2009

@12:40am

i was so off my game @ work today.

lol, typing wrongs codes and shit.

eh.

thats what i get for missing days.

lalalala,

i was thinking about how awkward i am.

like i'm really awkward and shy.

idk,. i prob said this b4 but i stumble over my words and i say incomplete sentences when i try to explain myself to random people and shit.

it's annoying.

i need to work on being a little more assertive and firm 

i concentrate on not coming off rude,

&i wanna be respectful at times,

but doing so makes me feel like a bitch.

&then theres this thing we're i'm so sympathetic 

&i don't wanna hurt peopls feelings.

and yadiyadiya.

when i go to college i don't wanna be all awkward &junk,

b/c i don't wanna come off as naive and easy to take advantage of.

hmm, i think it's a confidence thing.

well w/e.

ahhh, i gotta work on that b/c i'm kinda beating myself up.

like i'm so awkward it's urking me...eh.

i guess we all have flaws we gotta work on,

i'm not gonna be satisfied w/ everything i do.

but that shit needs to STOP

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on to a lighter note:

it is now 12:48am

LOL

i ordered like 3 things off of ebay.

i was impulse shopping and i'm realizing i have an ebay problem.

everytime i fricken go on there i always bid for something

&i get the jitters when it comes like [...] close and i'm about to win it.

smh.

nxt week?

oh please, oh please.

=]

ahh, well i'm done.

for some reason i've caused myself to shake...

eh.

peace<3

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oh joy...

it is now 1:12am

&i seem to have placed myself in a saddened mood again.

=/