it's better to light a candle than to curse the dark.

ahhh, i actually have spare time so i think imma blog.

LMFAO, i just realized that blogger has like this little spell check thingy thing.

that'll do great help for me b/c i can't spell for shit.

but anywhoooo,

ahahahaha,

one of my friends told me that everything that goes through me turns into crap.

LOL, i find that hilar b/c it actually has been seeming that way.

like it seems like every little incident that happens everyone seems to find out about it.

likeee, the whole me pulling down 'concaveup' skirt.

[***totally unintentional BTW***]

buttttt, yeah, everybody kept talking about it and saying stuff like

 'are they even cool?'

'are they even talking?'

ehhhhh, i just find it amusing and aggravating but mehhh, thats HS for yah.

ahh, i feel really different.

like DIFFERRRRENNTTT.

in a positive way and a negative way.

i feel kind of out of it talking to my close buddies.

like dead.

idky, i think it's b/c i've gained this whole 'i need to learn how to be to myself' mentality.

i've ceased telling people stuff that i want to tell them, 

partly b/c i hate explaining and b/c i think i say too much.

ehhhh, but thats gonna change.

brb, i gotta check my rice on the stove.

lmfao, running back i almost fell.

but bam, 

what was i saying?

ohh, but positively,

it's helping me gain more self assurance.

more confident and ishnessnessss.

ahhhhhhh, but like i said it's all a PROCESS.

oh!

don't you know that thing called you conscience?

it tells you stuff that you often ignore.

i've tried this little thing called listening to it 

it's very minor but likeee.

hmmm, when i'm doing something for instance 

like say i was leaving out to take the trash out and something tells me to take my phone with me.

normally i would ignore it, but i'm making it a must to LISTEN to it, 

no matter how small and insignificant i think it is.

idkkk, i just think your conscience is there for a reason.

umm, 

i'm making this little salsa rice thing berri told me about.

i made it likee sunday and it was oh so delic!

um, so yeah

life is going pretty dandy.

i have jii shit to fix w/ self and others but like i saidddd...

shall i repeat myself once more? 

i think i shall...

it's  a PROCESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS[!]

adios<3