I know the secret!: The Law of Attraction.

I learned this in Philosophy Friday, and being the optimist that I am, I thought this was the bestest thing ever! You guys should really try it.

The Law of Attraction pretty much states your thoughts attract everything around you.

So if you're thinking negative thoughts such as, "oh, i'm gonna get evicted because I didn't pay my rent last month" then you're gonna get evicted. But if you think "oh, i'm not gonna get evicted, they're gonna give me sometime to pay the money off" then that's what going to happen.

Pretty much be optimistic about everything people!

and good things will come your way.

I've always had this state of mind but i'm going to put it into full affect.

besides life goes way better when you don't drown yourself with worries and negativities.

I hope you guys really check it out...:]

oh check out the website about the "The Secret" movie as well.

Promise Yourself:

To be so strong that nothing can disturb my peace of mind.

To talk health, happiness, and prosperity to every person I meet.

To make all my friends feel that there is something worthwhile in them.

To look at the sunny side of everything and make my optimism come true.

To think only of the best, to work only for the best and to expect only the best.

To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others as I am about my own.

To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future.

To wear a cheerful expression at all times and give a smile to every living creature I meet.

To give so much time to improving myself that I have no time to criticize others.

To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear, and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.

To think well of myself and to proclaim this fact to the world, not in loud word, but in great deeds.

To live in the faith that the whole world is on my side, so long as I am true to the best that is in me.

thrust me with some peace.

i need to calm my soul.

it's so frustrated at the moment.

i had a pretty good day, i'm becoming very comfortable here.

but theres one new unfortunate thing thats kind of pushing me off my tracks.

i'm trying to let it not get to me,

but i can't help ittttt.

it's much easier when it isn't seen but today was like OD too much.

i'm already awkward as it is, so playing it cool was a def no no.

i'm trying to get over it, but i suck.

1 more month of this nonsense tho! sigh :/

so i was just reading my blog from 3/31 last year and it's funny because i'm feeling kind of the same way right now.

i've always had a problem with being around the same people ALLLL THE TIMEEEE.

like i hate seeing and being around the same people everyday.

i'm so over cliques, i'm so over that omg every bodies my best friend!

i like to broaden my horizons cause i get bored easily.

i really enjoy talking to new people, b/c it's something different.

so when this girl hits me up everyday i get so annoyed.

it's not like i don't like her but damn, give me some fuckin time to miss you or something like damn!

i'm very sweet, and i admire and enjoy a lot of people, but not when i'm around you 24/7.

i'm tryna hold on to a little piece of myself

lately, i've been running through all these different methods that i use as an attempt to express myself.

i tried going to tumblr, making my own cpu diary, and even writing poems again.

but nothing suffices.

i miss the good ole days where i would come home from a happy, sad, chill w/e day and just blog my heart out.

i wear my heart on my sleeve here, and i miss that.

it was good for me.

i'm at a lost for words at describing myself.

ever since school started, i've been slowly loosing her.

now she's gone.

i'm not the same Nataki i was a year ago, i'm uptight, extremely introvertive, sour, bitter..

the only thing i seem to have kept were my flip floppy emotions.

what happened to that random, say anything out the ass, goofy loopy girl that I used to be before this whole Altoona thing happened?

the person i appear to be here is not who i truly am.

but i can't seem to fuckin dig her back out,

every time i push my hand in she gets deeper and deeper.

[ahahha, no pun i swearr!]

the only thing that's keeping me sane is my terrible habit to dwell on the past.

i look at old pictures, videos, read old blogs to remind me of how i used to be,

gives me some kind of hope i guess..?

idk what i should do,

i've just been taking each day at a time.

i need to go home, i need familiar grounds.

familiar friends, familiar streets, familiar places.

i want change, but i'm not that strong..

i can't just let go and dive in. :/

=]

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/natx3

hmm?

iCatharsis

...are YOU smart?

rant.

I'm sick of being like this and its annoying the hell out of me. I'm always tryna find a loop hole or some way to justify the way i am but theres nothing.
I'm shy, i get nervous too easily, i can't speak my mind if my life depended on it, i'm extremely awkward, i think b4 i speak, i find a fricken fault in every fricken thing that i do and say.
This shit is far from saying, 'i'm just human, everybody does it' b/c at some fricken point that person should grow out of it, or it should minimize or some shit. not get worst! Sigh.
Everytime i tell myself nxt time will be better, imma change it no more. I throw all that possy tlk out the door and fall back into my old ways again. :/
Idk what to do anymore, i'm not happy. I'm just a ghost walking endlessly.
I don't wanna try anymore and i don't have the energy to fake it either. everything just really NEEDS to be fixed.
But something in me refuses to be down in the dumps, everyting that i'm feeling is just building up somewhere underlying w/n.
Geez, i don't wanna be a downer, i just wanna change. :/

--posted via my phone. :]

slap me. -.-

i seriously think i have a problem
like wtf?
whats so hard about a wave?

saying high?

i literally choke up.

someone needs to seriously slap me b/c this is so juvenile.

ughhh :/

sigh, i'm so pathetic.