i fell asleep beneath the flowers..

ahh, so i decided to blog while i was in the thinking, blogging mood.

hmm, ya know life is great.

not my life..but life in general.

we have so many roller coasters that we endure in life and i like to think theres a meaning behind it.

it kinda keeps me sane knowing that what i go through betters me in the long run.

i'm a very optimistic person,

i mean i can be very negative at times,

but i force myself to look at things w/ a positive aspect.

ya know sometimes i just sit and think about life,

and why we have the type of people that we have in the world today.

whether they contribute in a positive or negative way..

i think they're all here for some reason.

but anyway,

i noticed that i always think with a strategy in my head.

mostly when i'm worried about something,

or a problem pops up that solely deals w/ myself. lol

like i had a slight tiny predicament today, nothing major,but it bothered the hell out of me.

i can't have a problem and let it go unsettled b/c i'll keep thinking about it, and thinking about it.

i won't be able to sleep and i'll just stay up and think about it and it just makes me feel so ugghhh.

the only way for me to stop is to derive a plan in my head..

&it won't fully go away until i execute it.

it's still kinda bothering me a little so i feel very uneasy right now.

soo i can't wait till tomorrow, cause this is frustrating.

other times i'd have to takes notes or make list and post them somewhere in my room where i'd always look.

it makes me feel better...

um, soo yeah

i recently rejuvenated an old pastime, if you will that i used to love.

i don't wanna say it b/c i think it sounds cliche and i don't wanna be like all the other folks who aspire the same thing but bleh.

this summer i've been like watching jii movies.

idk, i like letting a movie move me lol.

i like the lessons movies teach you in the end and i also like observing the actors.

after a movie is over whether w/e emotion it brings on me i like to wallow in it and think.

whether i cry, or smile, or laugh.

i enjoy it.

today i watch 'the number 23'

ahh, i loved the movie

it was so suspenseful.

it made me remember how great of an actor jim carey is.

bleh, i think i find appreciation in like the simplest things.

hmm, i prob sound like a loser but ah well.

this is the end of my blog.

who knows when i'll blog again.

byee. ;]