MAMMA mia!

this summer helped me to reflect a lot

my flaws have been like a slap in the face.

but i realized that i can either accept them or try to improve my weak areas.

i was just watching this vid and the lady was saying that if you want something theres no point in whining about not having, get your ass out there and aim to for it.

which is something i think we all know but we fail to attempt,

like myself.

my reflection is really like a nip in the butt cause its where everyyyyything i've dealt with is coming to a head.

i feel like i'm falling into myself and really starting to see things and people for what they really are.

a good friend told me that isolating myself from people wasn't the ideal answer to solve my problems.

and although it was a totally diff situation...

this time i really did start to isolate myself,

and it proved to back fire in my face cause it made me feel all kinds of ways.

but isolating myself did have a slight advantage..

it made me realize how idiotic i was being.

i'm normally a take things for what they are kind of person..

and i'll worry about the details later.

i'm very analytical but not off the back.

it takes time for me to really understand a meaning within the whole of everything.

i may sound like i'm blubbering but i just feel like everything is REAL right now,

like truly genuine.

theres a rainbow and a pot of gold to every screwed up thing that happens to a person and i'm merely miles away from reaching mine.

smh, what made me think of all this shit?

things that have been blowing my mind all texas chainsaw massacre and shit is finally coming to light.

i feel really at peace with myself.

stupid little petty shit i let bother me,

smh, i'm only human.

but i am smart enough to acknowledge and rectify my mishaps. :]

but on a lighter note.

my damn navy sheik has returned.

shit!

but ahhh :]]]]]]]]]] i can't help it.

i'm pathetic. tsk.

and a wonderfulllll rule that i remembered today:

keep your friends close &your enemies closer.

hmmm huh.

btw:

i soooo made a vid blog,

but i highly doubt i'll put it up.

i'll make another one later.

another btw:

good day! GOOD DAY!

i fell asleep beneath the flowers..

ahh, so i decided to blog while i was in the thinking, blogging mood.

hmm, ya know life is great.

not my life..but life in general.

we have so many roller coasters that we endure in life and i like to think theres a meaning behind it.

it kinda keeps me sane knowing that what i go through betters me in the long run.

i'm a very optimistic person,

i mean i can be very negative at times,

but i force myself to look at things w/ a positive aspect.

ya know sometimes i just sit and think about life,

and why we have the type of people that we have in the world today.

whether they contribute in a positive or negative way..

i think they're all here for some reason.

but anyway,

i noticed that i always think with a strategy in my head.

mostly when i'm worried about something,

or a problem pops up that solely deals w/ myself. lol

like i had a slight tiny predicament today, nothing major,but it bothered the hell out of me.

i can't have a problem and let it go unsettled b/c i'll keep thinking about it, and thinking about it.

i won't be able to sleep and i'll just stay up and think about it and it just makes me feel so ugghhh.

the only way for me to stop is to derive a plan in my head..

&it won't fully go away until i execute it.

it's still kinda bothering me a little so i feel very uneasy right now.

soo i can't wait till tomorrow, cause this is frustrating.

other times i'd have to takes notes or make list and post them somewhere in my room where i'd always look.

it makes me feel better...

um, soo yeah

i recently rejuvenated an old pastime, if you will that i used to love.

i don't wanna say it b/c i think it sounds cliche and i don't wanna be like all the other folks who aspire the same thing but bleh.

this summer i've been like watching jii movies.

idk, i like letting a movie move me lol.

i like the lessons movies teach you in the end and i also like observing the actors.

after a movie is over whether w/e emotion it brings on me i like to wallow in it and think.

whether i cry, or smile, or laugh.

i enjoy it.

today i watch 'the number 23'

ahh, i loved the movie

it was so suspenseful.

it made me remember how great of an actor jim carey is.

bleh, i think i find appreciation in like the simplest things.

hmm, i prob sound like a loser but ah well.

this is the end of my blog.

who knows when i'll blog again.

byee. ;]

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...read my blog foo!

smmfh, people got some nerve.

i'm telling you...

i'm on the brink of not holding my tongue.

pushing my mother fuckin buttons &shit.

>;o

lame. lame. lame. lame.

hmm, i've been thinking alot lately.

i've just been getting really agitated w/ things that i was used to be before.

i'm like on the EDGE of saying something that I believe i will regret.

man i always say i don't feel like myself,

but like wtf is that?

i feel like i change everyday b/c as of now,

the things that i deemed entertaining before...just aren't anymore.

theres so many things that need to be tweaked ya know...

i feel very uncomfortable saying my thoughts to the people that i was used to telling before.

ah, i'm not doing very good @ explaining.

everything is irking me.

ahh, but i was told that maybe i'm thinking of all this hoopla b/c i don't have anything to do w/ myself but who knows.

i'm just concentrating on august 21st in the back of mind b/c i get to...

get away.

but um, imma try to blog more often to get back into my funk.

even if theres no point to my blogs @ all.

i'm becoming too closed again.

um, but to keep you updated../

i'm not a veg head anymore.

yeah yeah, blah blah.

i only eat chicken & maybe turkey tho.

everything else is nasty.

i've always hated beef,

&pork will NEVER EVER touch my lips.

i know i'm being an animal racist, lol

but i still love piggies<3

ahh, i am going natural.

and right now my hair looks like road kill.

but thats b/c i haven't done it in a week.

but when i do it,

it does look next to decent.

still haven't gotten a new phone yet.

lololol,

but i'm working on it.

hmm, i take my driving classes in a couple weeks.

bout fricken time!

i'm undergoing a clothes sheik,

&my eclipse book comes in the mail next week!

whoo woo.

well yeah thats about it for tonight,

imma take a 12am shower

&then eat my chow mangoes.

peace<3